Friday, June 30, 2006 it turned out to be unlike what i thought it would be like. but yeah, i should have known. i just thought it'd be fun. that's all. & i should stop with my stupid bitchy attitude, like he owes me or something.
i could be a much better girlfriend, and i will.
and i must stop acting like a spoilt brat. i don't know why i do it now but at least all my stupid depression mood swings are gone, for the time being. i don't feel like killing myself or going overseas. like when i came back from shanghai, i appreciate singapore, my parents and everything a little more. but when i think of vancouver, i just want to go there. it's my kind of life.
but im scared to be alone in a foreign country. and can i really bear to leave? no one can say what will happen in a year's time. and i am scared to think about it too.
still my superhero.
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